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Sayaka Maizono Current Address: 149031 Holly Heights Family: Wife: Natsuru Senou (thirdbeauty) Elder Daughter: Kyoko Mogami (fairyobsessed) Younger Daughter: Yotsuba Koiwai (fourleafed) Friends: "Self-Proclaimed" Party Mom: Camilla "Milly" Ashford (shesgotguts) Close Friend: Makoto Yuuki (sealant)

“ Hello~! This is Sayaka Maizono, and I'm not at the phone right now... but please leave a message and I'll get to you as soon as possible, okay? ❤ ”
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[guiltydulcinea]

Natsuru-san...

[ There's a pause here as she looks at Natsuru incredulously, almost sadly. This wasn't something that she'd wanted to drag Natsuru into by any means, but the fact that she was willing to stay despite her own protests...

Closing her eyes, she finds that her own hand is squeezing Natsuru's back desperately, almost clinging to her as if she'd lose the latter forever if she even thought about letting go. ]

... we did, huh...?

[ Maizono can't help but chuckle wryly at that. Part of her wonders if that was her just teasing Natsuru, hiding her true face, or if she was being sincere with that thought...

One thing she knew, though, is that Natsuru had become far too important a presence in her life to let just walk away like that. ]

Because... you...?

[ Well? Come on, Natsuru, out with it! ]

[thirdbeauty]

[She'd almost hoped that Maizono wouldn't even notice. But then, she'd almost hoped that she would, too. This whole situation made her want to fight harder to stay by Maizono's side, and made her more sure of her feelings than she ever thought possible.

She just... didn't want to be the one to say it first. It's too scary. But then... she isn't saying it first, is she? Maizono confessed to her once, even though they were both under some sort of weird landlord prank effect. And then they talked about how they might possibly still have feelings like that... and wasn't there a text when she was drunk, too?

The way Maizono had squeezed her hand back was like the last boost of courage she needed. Heart racing, butterflies going wild in her stomach, she takes a deep breath and...]

Because... I love you, Sayaka-chan!

[Ah... she said it! Much more confidently than she thought she ever would!]

That's why... I want to always be together. No matter what. Even if Junko-chan tries anything.

[God, she's blushing so hard right now. But once she's built up momentum, it all comes spilling out.]

Even if... I have to spend the rest of my life here as a girl. If I never find a way to change back... as long as you're okay with it...

[That's a sacrifice she was never willing to make for even Sakura Kaede! Though, in Sakura's case, she only wanted Natsuru as a girl. Maizono had made it clear that she didn't care, as long as it was Natsuru. And she's still not giving up on getting back to her 'normal' self. She's just admitting that she can live without it, if she absolutely had to to be with Maizono.]

[guiltydulcinea]

Natsuru-san...!

[ O-oh, no... her eyes are already starting to water from happiness that Natsuru finally said it! About time, she was worried that she'd have to be the one to outright confess to her...

Even so, despite knowing that Natsuru loved her so it didn't help anything; if anything all it did was weigh her down more because of her own issues about what she'd done. What she'd confesed to Minako about wondering if she even deserved to be happy... the lingering doubts nagged at her, nipping at her well-being. ]

I... I love you too. So much... I can truly say that.

[ She smiles up at her sadly, wiping at her tears. ]

And... I want to help you out, too. Where I can... help you find a way to change back, if at all possible. But... even then, I'd be okay with it. I'm always okay with you, Natsuru-san!

[ Maizono looks away shamefully, wringing her free hand as her other hand grips Natsuru's tighter. It was an uncomfortable scenario that she'd played in her head many times since Junko's arrival, and with her basically goading the other girl into coming after her... ]

... I just hope that you'll be okay with me. You... already know that I'm not nearly as innocent or as cheerful as I make myself out to be. In fact, under the right circumstances I can be downright terrifying. Enoshima-san knows this too well, too... she'd be more than willing to come after you, too, just to get to me.

[ She already got into Maizono's mind once, and it chilled her blood just thinking about it. ]

If she does do something, and I get it into my head that trying to kill someone is the best way to solve the problem... I want you to stop me, okay? Because...

[ Because...? ]

Because I'm scared... what if I start going after other people? What if I went after you? I... don't know if I could forgive myself if I ended up hurting you, or worse...

[thirdbeauty]

[Oh wow, it's actually happening... for real, this time! She'd let her own momentum carry her this far, not thinking about what Maizono would say in reply. In fact, the pause after she hears Maizono say her name seems to last forever... and yet, Natsuru isn't worried at all that she won't say it back. Instead, she just hopes the tears aren't a sign of something going horribly wrong.

She doesn't even realize she was holding her breath until she hears Maizono finally say it back. For real. Not like what happened a few months ago. Letting that breath out, the brightest smile that's ever traced across her lips starts to emerge.

And she knows Maizono has her problems. Her past... Junko... the things she'd attempted to do in the worst of possible circumstances. Concern starts to overlap her smile as Maizono continues... but her faith in the girl she'd fallen in love with doesn't waver for a second.]

I don't believe that'll happen... and you're not terrifying!

[She doesn't mean Maizono can't be terrifying. There's an unspoken acknowledgement of that side of her, but also a denial that she'll ever let herself be pushed to that point again.

Holding Maizono's hand firmly, and moving in closer, she takes a deep breath, and...]

I won't let you do anything like that... and I know you won't, either. But... if someone tries to make you...

[Her heart feels like it's going to burst from how overwhelming the confession and promises and just... everything has been. And now, she's even more determined to protect Maizono, whenever and however she can.

Suddenly, before even Natsuru realizes it, she leans in and wraps her arms around Maizono, holding her tight.]

Hey... we made a promise, right? How about... we promise to protect each other? No matter what...

[guiltydulcinea]

[ It's okay, Natsuru, she's crying because she's happy...?

Okay, no, that would be a partial lie, but she is crying partly from happiness. If anythin, she's also crying because she's scared of what may happen to them now. She doesn't want anything to happen to them, but...

It also doesn't help that she's more or less antagonized Junko into going after Natsuru now, too; between everything that's happened and her own wavering resolve about what she was going to do regarding Junko, Maizono's more or less burned out emotionally for the moment.

Which is why she lets Natsuru speak for as long as she needs to, sniffling every now and again as she squeezes Natsuru's hand tightly, as if letting go of her would lead to her disappearing for good.

The hug is what truly gets to her, though... before she realizes it she's collapsing into Natsuru's embrace, sobbing quietly. Clinging to her tightly, not wanting to let go of her, all the more so since she feels that she's the only one she can truly be herself around, the ugliness inside of her heart notwithstanding. ]

We... we did... and I mean it, too. I know... I'm not exactly perfect, but... I promise to protect you as best I can, Natsuru...

[ Even if she has to become a twisted killer again just to protect her, she'd willingly do it.

... note that she's also dropped the honorific from her name entirely. ]

[thirdbeauty]

[Aw, Maizono...! This confession has turned out much more bittersweet. There's just so much going on... as happy as Natsuru is that her feelings are reciprocated, she wishes Maizono didn't have as many reasons for being worried or upset right now, either.

... So they'll never have that happy sparkly confession out in the bright daylight with sakura petals flying past them in the breeze, after all. But they had that once, and at least now Natsuru knows it's real. And she's determined to be here for Maizono, whatever she needs.

Right now, that seems to mean holding her. Which is exactly what she does, hugging her tightly and letting her cry as much as she needs to.

As bittersweet as the moment is, she can't help but smile faintly when she hears her name spoken without honorifics. Like that time... the confession that could have been. And kind of was, in a way. It turns out they really did love each other after all, didn't it?]

Me too. I promise I'll always do my best to protect you, Sayaka...

[She can feel a warmth in her cheeks as she says it. As far as she's concerned, Maizono's name never sounded more beautiful than in that moment. Breaking down that final barrier they'd put up since the last 'confession'. This time, they won't be going back, though.]

... No matter what.

[Even if she has to protect Maisono from herself... from becoming what she's terrified of becoming again. Nothing's more important to her now than the promises they've made.]