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Sayaka Maizono Current Address: 149031 Holly Heights Family: Wife: Natsuru Senou (thirdbeauty) Elder Daughter: Kyoko Mogami (fairyobsessed) Younger Daughter: Yotsuba Koiwai (fourleafed) Friends: "Self-Proclaimed" Party Mom: Camilla "Milly" Ashford (shesgotguts) Close Friend: Makoto Yuuki (sealant)

“ Hello~! This is Sayaka Maizono, and I'm not at the phone right now... but please leave a message and I'll get to you as soon as possible, okay? ❤ ”
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[guiltydulcinea]

. . . I'll take you at your word.

[ And just leave it at that.

Meanwhile, it takes Maizono quite a while to read Milly's text - and even longer to think of something to say... ]

... honestly, if feelings were easy to manage we wouldn't even be having this conversation, Milly. That's just part of what makes us human - nothing is ever in black or white. As frustrating as that can be...

Sometimes, there's really no such thing as a right or wrong answer. Especially when it comes to feelings.

But... think about this: you're one of the most fearless people I know when it comes to living their life on their own terms. You only have one life to live, as you mentioned before, right? Do you really want to live looking back on this and wondering what could have been?

[shesgotguts]

no, nothing is ever simple. it always has to be tangled up in itself. but i suppose half of the fun is untangling it.

[the fun has to be in untangling it, or she'd never do it. all that stress for what? a battered heart and disappointment? maybe a lesson in love and life down the line? the risk doesn't always match the reward.

(no matter what she does, no matter where she goes, no matter who she is, britannia is never too far away. and even though she doesn't want to admit it, neither is lelouch. and the fear he's imbued in her will never leave.)

that fear has to meet with sayaka's words-- she thinks milly is fearless? that's... quite the vote of confidence, especially when it comes to something like this. like romance... but what does she even do with that? it's not like she could just ask him out or something...]

i dont live with regrets. i dont want to! and i dont want to regret anything with aikuro. i just want to be around him, and enjoy his presence without making him feel like we have to be something so much more because thats what i want. id much rather just be his friend because he wants that than be his girlfriend because i want that. ive been in love with a friend before. its not the worst thing to ever happen.

[guiltydulcinea]

Milly...

[ There's another pause here as she closes her eyes; Milly was far different from her in that respect.

She herself was still bound up in many regrets from back home, and even though she had people here who still cared for her despite all of that she doubted she could really move on. For now, anyway; it remained to be seen whether or not she could move on.

It takes her much longer to respond, but when she does... ]

If you're sure, then... by all means. I hope that things work out between you two, regardless of what happens. You're far too kind to have to suffer that kind of pain, I think.

[shesgotguts]

its not pain. it sucks sometimes, when you see them smile at someone that clearly makes them happier than you ever could, but loving someone means you do whatever you can to make them happy. and if theyre happy, you are too.

so giving up my happiness isnt really giving up anything at all. its not a heavy sacrifice. sure, i wish all the time lelouch and i ended up together. i think about the day we met sometimes, and how we ended up so different. even though we were the same... i wish we couldve been something more, but i wouldnt trade all the time we spent together for a romance with him. never.

besides, he cared for shirley, and she loved him, and i loved both of them. using my graduation event to get them together was worth it.

[and even though she's talking about people sayaka's never met, she's still talking about aikuro. lelouch is aikuro's predecessor. people fall into patterns. milly still hasn't changed.]

ill talk to him about it. i should do that no matter how i feel. who knows. maybe ill end up with a handsome boyfriend.

[guiltydulcinea]

[ Maizono has no idea who Milly's talking about here, and as much as she wants to know right now that's not necessarily the main problem they have to address here, is it...?

So she's just gonna focus on what she does know, the situation with Aikuro, and nod quietly as she types, even though she's aware that Milly can't see what she's doing beyond the phone screen. ]

I hope it goes well! And if it doesn't... there's always next time.

You're right, though... his happiness is the most important. And I think that... no matter what happens, it'll be okay. Just don't forget... I'm here to talk to when you need it, okay?

Let me know how it goes!

[shesgotguts]

next time? i dont want to have to handle a next time. but will there be a next time? not with him.

his happiness is the most important... not overall, but for this moment i really have to think about what he wants. and if its just my body, or my friendship, or anything thats not exactly what i want, then thats how it goes.

thanks, sayaka. im glad i have such a lovely daughter i can count on. ill call you if anything happens, okay? so dont forget to pick up!

[guiltydulcinea]

Mm-hmm. I'll try not to!

. . . I hope it goes well, though. I'm sorry if I can't help more than this - considering how things went with Natsuru, I can't really think of anything that would help your situation any...

[shesgotguts]

you two were lucky, it seems. and honestly? someone has to be. if not me, then definitely you.

i have hopes for all of this. but dont worry. having you here and willing to talk to me is more than enough. thats more help than you think.

[guiltydulcinea]

I'm glad that I can help. And don't forget, too, you're welcome at our house anytime!

. . . actually, we got a couple new guests here during the last week - our daughters, according to this place. You should come visit when you can!

[shesgotguts]

thank you! i should visit you two soon. have dinner... ill bring my darling daughter too. not you. mafuyu. youre darling too, but this one lives with me.

oh, you have kids now too?





WAIT WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME I HAD GRANDCHILDREN?!?!?!?!?! OH MY GOSH I HAVE TO MEET THEM NOW! I HAVE TO LET THEM KNOW THAT I AM SO EXCITED TO BE A GRANDMAMA!!!! sayaka how dare you not tell your mother about this right away

[guiltydulcinea]

Yes? To be fair, we only found out about them a few days ago.

. . .

That, and it didn't seem appropriate to mention it at the time since you wanted advice on how to approach the whole love situation, too...

[shesgotguts]

no excuses! i shouldve been notified immediately! before anything else! aikuro mikisugi be damned!!!

it shouldve gone

milly: hey sayaka! i just got laid!
sayaka: thats great! you needed it. natsuru and i have two kids now!
milly: thats even better!
milly: *kicks down the door to 1431 with a tray of cookies in one hand and a bottle of wine in the other in under five minutes*

just like that

[guiltydulcinea]

. . .

I'll keep that in mind for next time?

[ Maizono may or may not actually be going to the window and checking if Milly's at the front door, incidentally... ]

[shesgotguts]

[don't worry, sayaka! she's not there.

yet.]

how many grandchildren do you expect to have? and beyond that, how many times do you expect me to have sex with aikuro?? and then be confused after it? personally, im looking at two more times.

[guiltydulcinea]

[ Oh, boy. This is gonna be a trip and a half, isn't it. :|; ]

I was actually thinking three more times, myself...

As for grandchildren, we haven't yet figured that out yet! I haven't found a good time to ask Natsuru about it...

[shesgotguts]

[did you expect anything else?

also is that the jaws theme playing in the background because someone may or may not be on their way to see their daughter?]

THREE. okay, i can work with that. hopefully well have more sex after #4 without confusion. he really was good...

ANYWAY

i meant bringing more children in via landy, but if you two are planning for your own natural child, id be happy to babysit while you two "try" for one! ;) ;) ;)

[she knows full well how human anatomy works, but who cares about scientific accuracy in the name of embarrassing her favourite people?]

[guiltydulcinea]

[ Maizono can already feel some semblance of dread shooting down her spine right now because that would be just like her, wouldn't it... ]

I pray for your success?

[ Because what is she supposed to say to THAT? ]

Uh... Milly, we're both girls... I don't think that's going to work, unless the Landlord did something really crazy and outlandish...

[ Or unless Natsuru is able to get her original male body back, whichever comes first. Though she says nothing on that front because she's pretty sure that Natsuru hasn't said anything about her secret to Milly at all... ]

[shesgotguts]

[absolutely. it is 100% like her.

the jaws theme is picking up.]

no harm in trying anyway! though, landy has done some strange things before, so who is to say he wouldnt help with something like that? maybe hell have a stork drop a little baby boy on your doorstep.

[guiltydulcinea]

Can we not?! I don't want to start giving him ideas, much less have it actually happen...

[ MILLY PLZ ]

[shesgotguts]

if he took ideas from all of my texts, altaciere would be named after me, harvey would be 10000% nicer, suzaku would be back, and landy and i would be married.

dont worry. he doesnt listen to me at all.

[there's a knock at the door. WHO COULD IT BE???]

btw did you guys paint your house? it looks fresher.

[guiltydulcinea]

I see... he could just be filing it away for another time or something. I'm just saying...

[ . . . seriously? Maizono looks at the door, raising an eyebrow as she approaches it. ]

I don't think so? Unless the house freshened itself up while we weren't looking...

[shesgotguts]

if he gets to this point in our conversation, then hes waded through boy talk, and he deserves to have that idea.

[yes seriously. what did you expect?]

huh. maybe it knew i would be by today, and it dolled itself up for me. im charmed! [incredible. she's about to flirt with a house.]

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[guiltydulcinea]

A fair point. That would imply he even bothers looking through all our texts...

[ Okay, though, but that's enough. Maizono eventually opens the door, staring at Milly incredulously. ]

Are you really trying to flirt with our house?

[ Granted, she's seen stranger, but still... ]